Wednesday, December 05, 2007

What's holding back..

I am an individual with lots of energy... so, motto in life for me has always been to make the best out of what there is.. be enthu.. have fun.. enjoy whatever you do..

Time seems to be struck.. did some arbit things over past few weeks.. but the restlessness within is not rubbing off..

Went to an orphanage to give some food stuff on a weekend.. somehow the kids seemed so happy.. why not me?
Just the smile at taking a bite of food seemed to cause so much joy.. may be I have got accustomed to the luxury of good food..

Been on a trek to kemmanagundi.. spent time with old friends enjoyed the moment..
But, once back.. the serenity of place seems to be haunting me..
I've been thinking of WH Davies poem.. 'what's this life if full of care, we have not time to stand and stare?'

Work is not that hectic.. getting more time to spend with family
Now, I regularly have dinner with family- a luxury from past few weeks..
But, somehow is this because I am not working enough.. hope not, because i seem to be doing the same things faster..

Met up with all my old friends over weekend, everyone seems to be in the same phase.. doing same things..
Some have moved, some have struck onto the same places, but generally not much change..
Oddly felt withdrawn.

Just trying to see what needs to be done differently.. where to make a difference?

Ciao till next time...Harsha